Thursday, November 28, 2013
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
This post is about my first spanking in ttwd. After this, Gud gave me an assignment. I was to send him a letter about my thoughts, feelings, emotions during the experience. The letter to him ended up being four emailed pages and well, more detail that I think anyone would want to know. (It just basically confirms the "crazy" inside my head. So, I have condensed it to an overall idea of my feelings before he came to visit the first time, what happened to get me that spanking (that I thought I would never deserve,) and my thought process and emotions through the whole thing.
In writing about this I was overcome with emotion and couldn't work out in my mind, or in my heart, why.
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Hi, I am Rose, Gud One's wife. We began our Christian Domestic Discipline journey a few years ago. I had just met this man online and after two weeks of talking, and sharing that I needed a "leader" in my home and him wanting to be a "leader" in his home, he asks this question, sort of nonchalantly, "Have you ever heard of CDD? It is also known as Christian Domestic Discipline." I had not and he asked if I would be willing to read more about this and let him know what I thought....and I did.
We started out reading posts on a Yahoo! group for CDD. He would send me, through email, a post link and ask, "What do you think about this?" I saw posts about corner time, about writing lines, and yes, about spanking. I have to admit the idea of being spanked was very appealing to me... sexually, that is..but for punishment? I can remember telling him that I just couldn't imagine myself misbehaving so badly that I would need to be punished! HAHAHA... That lead to discussions on what a "spankable offense" might be in his mind. Things like disobeying rules, being disrespectful, being selfish, and the list goes on. I realized that it was more about submissiveness and not "being a bad person."
My first DD experience was not the most exciting experience. We were in a long distance relationship, and no spanking was involved. I will share that post tomorrow.
In the beginning, Gud had me write about my feelings and thoughts and this was after the first experience, over three years ago:
So, that was it, my very first experience with CDD. As an introduction to my blog and to get you "caught up" on our journey, I will be spending the first few posts in those first years and some of the feelings, experiences, and realizations I had. And that, is How It All Began!